before we chat , i wrote you a letter !
I wasn’t really planning on doing something like this.
I’m still learning English, and before I found you, I had never
really interacted with streams at all.
Even now, I don’t fully understand how everything works.
I’m just a guy living in a hard place, trying to do my best every
day.
And in the middle of that hardness…
your silly thoughts, your cute laughs, and even the way you get
flustered sometimes
made me feel a little lighter for a while.
At first I thought it was just a small feeling.
But it stayed with me through the week.
A little smile here and there whenever I remembered you.
That’s when I realized…
I think I actually have a crush on you.
I wanted to just send you a message on Discord and tell you how I
feel.
The worst that could happen is you say no — and that would be
okay.
I would still enjoy watching you.
But I had no real way to show you that I genuinely like you
and that I’d like to know you better.
So I made this instead.
Something that might make you smile, even just a little.
No pressure.
and No expectations baby boy.
just want to know you.
Well!
That’s a hard question, hehe.
But I’ll tell you honestly why I feel the way I feel. So don’t mock me after it, ’cause I can’t answer back
Okay...
First of all... damn, you’re a hot boy!
You’re one of the hottest femboys I’ve seen.
Then... there is your voice.
Your cute foxy voice makes me smile each time you scream for no
reason, and the way you laugh like you’re short of breath, hehe.
You’re really attractive, and pretty, and beautiful.
Although I’ve never seen your face, I can see who you really are, too.
Actually, because of what I’ve seen from you, it made me create this site, because I believe you’re a good and kind-hearted person.
You work as a barista every day, which is a hard job. I’ve seen how they work, and it’s like a complete workout by itself.
And yet, after work, you try to stay in touch with your friends and take care of your mom.
And you try to keep your word and stream at the times you promised.
Although you’re doing all of this, you’re still trying to follow your passion, which is music.
You’re doing all of that, with a lot on your shoulders, yet you smile and do your best.
And although you struggle a bit because you live in an expensive city (New York), I’ve never once seen you put anyone under pressure to donate money or do anything for you.
I’ve seen you yawning like a hundred times during streams, yet you kept your smile and did the best you could.
It’s adorable, Smo. It’s admirable. It’s beautiful.
And it shows that you ARE a good boy. An honest boy. A soft-hearted boy. A hard-working and passionate one.
And I want to tell you something, Smo.
If anyone ever mocks you for being a femboy, believe me — you’re more of a man than a lot of them out there, baby boy.
I don’t know if you’ve ever had that feeling when you see
something good, honest, and vulnerable, and you want to protect
it and be there for it?
I have that for you.
And besides that... you make me smile. You make me feel good.
It might sound weird, but seeing you so alive and trying, makes me feel like life can be good, because there are people like you in it. :)